It sucks to paint an entire paint store by yourself.

I was driving home after a defeating day at work- I was supposed to prime and paint my entire store today and didn't realize just how long it would take- and I was listening to the Front Porch show on the Wolf. It was the perfect time for me to hear some Texas Country because I'd been painting to the regular country all day, and the Texas kind just helps me relax because I like it more. Then they played our wedding song- the exact live version.

And the waterworks started.

Bean will be working in Louisiana until ?. We're going to take it a week or two at a time. So far we know that he is on his way there now, and will meet me in Houston on Friday so we can see each other in between a bridal shower and painting. The weekend after that, he is going fishing with his dad/brother, a trip that's been planned for a couple of months (luckily I'm working). The weekend after that is Girls Weekend in Houston, which he's unfortunately not invited to. The weekend after that I'll be working, but he said he would probably still come home so we could see each other in the evenings.

The part of the song that gets me is "You by my side, I can do without the city lights" because we are lazy, and I would hate myself if I sat around watching TV as much as we do. But it's fun because we're together. This week he won't be 'by my side', and I have to cook only for myself. I don't remember what it's like to do that!

On the other hand, my independent side is excited because I'm going to LA Fitness tomorrow to see what kind of deal I can get so I can start working out again. If I can get into a routine, (and he plans to work out while he's there too), when he moves back we will hopefully both have a routine that we can do together instead of being so lazy.

But my heart hurts because I just love him so much, and usually I can't fall asleep if he's not there with me. Plus I'm crazy, and he always makes me feel better.

Like today when I was painting that damn store for 3 hours when he came to have lunch on his way out of town. I was frustrated because I wanted to have all the priming done before lunch, but I had one entire wall, plus half of another one left to do. Not just normal walls- they are above shelving so they are reachable only by ladder, plus there is a ton of cutting in around some pictures I couldn't take down. And the primer was oil and it was speckled all over my hands. Luckily I tinted the primer close to the paint color or I would still be there. I don't even remember what Bean said, but he made me feel better about the situation. He only laughed a little bit when I used a thin latex glove to cover my paint-splattered hand while I ate.