February 27, 2013

1+1

It's been one week and one day since you left.

Only one week and 3 days since we celebrated your baby shower. One week and 4 days since you put your heart into the most sentimental, meaningful baby shower for me.

I don't understand how I'm supposed to be a mom or a wife or a person without you. I was lucky that I figured out how to have everything and not expect one person to be everything for me. Bean didn't have to listen to all of my silly dreams, or talk about dumb tv shows, and always got a better version of me because I worked stuff out with you first. You would have been the most fun mom, and I was going to learn from you- that's why you were a few weeks ahead of me.




There's so much more I want to tell you, so much I don't want to forget. I'm just so numb, I can't get any of it out.
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